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i have a prophecy!!!!
i will not have alot of friends ! :D
muahahahahahaa
so i blocked some people on msn on impulse :)
wheeeeee seriously, there has been zero input into my life from these people though , well, they've shared some common space with me for some time.
BURN THEM BRIDGES! MUAHAHAHHAHA
actually its more of a psychological thing. you can see that if you burn bridges, you're pruning the social circle of your life. Cutting away the ugly parts with no regard for the good parts. well, if you did that, then you'd be literally in a state of denial. denial of all the bad things that happened. denial of all the experiences and lessons learnt.
but its also valuable in its own intrinsic way in the sense that you'd be getting that "baggage" off your mind. its a way to" move on", albeit a not so healthy way to do so as opposed to facing those "demons" or "coming to terms" with those experiences. Actually i don't quite understand the phrase "coming to terms with". so what do you do when you actually do that? is admitting a shortfall or failure enough? or is changing your life in a certain way after that experience a sign of "coming to terms with" that experience?
think think think. its a chore for some. and to a certain extent i do view it as a burden sometimes. especially when decisions have to be made. However, i've come to notice that i cannot , not think. I will get too bored. or lets just say, i have a lack of understanding of the ability to deal with excess mental capacity and time. I do not officially have a hobby, nor do i have a healthy obsession, not that an obsession is actually healthy in any way, but it shows a deep desire for something. That desire i don't have. i haven't found.
i've been trying to actively think positively, breathe deeper(seems to be touted in every weight loss and sleep loss book) but its not working results are yet to be seen.
lets not use I.
He wonders how it will feel like should he type in the 3rd person. does it feel weird, just looking at himself as his own test subject, as the spirit hovering around his head ,lurking, watching, listening... its like having a companion , just that its yourself. another way would be to visualise himself as writing about a virtual character, one facing the screen , just like himself, and doing exactly the same things as he did.
how would his virtual character describe his surroundings? squalor? possibly. chaos? no. there is method to his madness.. or so he thinks his character has.
oh my. i was blogging about some other guy blogging about some other guy. -.-
4th person? LOL
