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ok , the main issue is not a partner. I have zero, zero confidence around girls/women/anything with long hair and smiles. ok some guys have long hair and yes they do freak me out a little LOL

but i've narrowed it down to me downplaying my ability all the time. thats 1. and the fact that i have almost ZERO social skills face to face.

like, no i can't chat a girl up. i'm not funny(enough). I am almost terrified of asking a girl to dance.

maybe that can be put into the 6 weird things list instead.

seriously, its easier for me to put a computer together and get it running fine than asking a girl to dance.

And i dance horribly. well, i used to be ok, but thats at basic level. :( The people there are SOO GOOD. ok they take 1 more class than me, have been learning for more hours than me and everything. So i either buck up or go back to apmi for lessons every friday instead lol I honestly don't want to waste the money.

its such a pity the classes clash. even though i was assured that they'd(the apmi ones) all be on tuesdays and thursdays. bleah. Anyway ALL the girls there are middle aged!!! o.o except 2(again) and they're from MI. lol both not bad, and they're schoolmate(male), i know from ns :)

well, i guess i need to be more confident about myself 1st. ok, how to boost self confidence... shit same qn again.